What I Think About While Meditating
Ooh the Headspace notification. I have time, I should meditate, right? I snooze this one all the time, good for me for paying attention to it today.
Ok ok sit on the floor. Close your eyes. Time to really breathe. Ugh, I love meditating I always feel so good after. Way to go Haley, making some time in the morning for mindfulness. Ok, the dogs are settled, sister’s in her room, so No Distractions.
Get cozy seated against the bed, gotta wiggle a little bit so the frame isn’t sticking into my back.
Back straight, knees crossed, make sure you have space for your belly to expand. Am I bad at breathing is my stomach expanding enough? Shit what if this is a bad meditation and I can’t even get my breathing right.
Roll the shoulders back ooh a little crack that’s good. Damn my back is still a little tight I should use a lacrosse ball after this. Or maybe more yoga will help? It’s probably from lifting, probably my form.
Ok, think I’m in the perfect posture I can get started. Shit I shouldn’t try to be perfect meditation is about practice and imperfection.
Alright ready to get started, make sure it’s set for five minutes (lol no way I can do ten today). Aaaand play.
Oh I always love listening to this guys voice.
Ok, close your eyes, focus on your breath. Is my back still little tight? Think it’s ok if I move around a little bit?
Oops forgot to take a sip of coffee. One little eye open to make sure I don’t miss my mouth.
Back to it, I am in this baby.
Focus on your breath.
Shit do I have a meeting in five minutes. Ok, doesn’t matter, you’re here now you can’t worry about what’s beyond your control.
Oops, back to breathing. Focus, Haley.
Ugh dogs stop barking.
Hmm what do I have to do after this. Finish that presentation for work and then I need to start skincare, wonder if I have time before my meeting.
Oh wait he’s talking about focusing on the breath again. Count backwards from 1000? That seems like kind of a lot dude what about like 10. 1000 feels arbitrary.
Clear the mind, stop thinking!
Man, I’m getting good at this. This is so good for my mental health! I am going to be so centered and calm once this is over.
How much time do we think is left? It won’t hurt if I just peek at the timer right?
Dammit Haley just focus. Remember what Glennon said about the liquid gold, that’s what we’re aiming for. You’ve felt it before we can do it this time.
No thoughts allowed. Brain, please stop wandering.
Focus focus focus. Wait or is it about not focusing? Meditation is so weird.
Ooh he’s at the part where we get to let go of focusing so hard and get back to our surroundings, Yay! Almost done.
Ok only 15 more seconds I can do this one last attempt to think only about breathing.
What is it I have to do after this again?
Aaaaand we’re done hooray!
Ooh I added five more minutes to my total how many does that calculate to this year? How much is that per week? I think I’m beating my stats from last year.
Damn, I’m amazing. I am peak self care. Badass meditator, right here.
Wow, I feel so good. I need to do this every day, for real this time. Same place same time tomorrow, Headspace. I’ll definitely be better at it next time.
